Been a TOUGH week

we went home to our hometown to see DH's family, and some how he felt the need to "talk" about things that have upset him over the years. Now I'm not gonna spread dirty laundry all over the web, but I am amazed at what happened. I mean one minute everything SEEMED fine, then he and SIL had words, then he's leaving with us in tow.

Now the dilemma here is that I TRULY had nothing to do with any of this "mess" but somehow it will be my fault, you are guaranteed. Usually I am the one doing the "just deal with it its only a short time" ya know those lines. But this time I was tired, stressed and well just done with it all and looked at him and said "for God sakes don't bitch at me about it, I can't change it." Oops guess that could make it my fault, but OMG he's 38 yrs old if he wants to be mad at his sister than he can right?

Well no one has called and he left today for a 212 day deployment, and I can't decided if I'm happier there were no more "issues" before he left or that I am mad because they didn't have the decency to "check in" on him to say good-bye. Not that I can change any of this, but I can tell you that he was AMAZING today when he left (see Missing you blog)

I will be writing a LOT more over the next few months so please check out my blogs gang. Have a Happy Easter everyone.

Finally are you ready for some football....

I know it might seem early but guess what for a family that is die hard football lovers its never too early LOL. Mack's middle school started intramural football this year, and OMG its great. Mack is 5'11' and is 300 lbs at 13 yrs old in 7th grade....are ya all saying college scholarship (well maybe not yet, but fingers crossed).

Mack has played ball before and was sad he couldn't play after our last move so when we got here and they said football was starting he's been so excited. The team did amazing. He has a friend who is also a 7th grader who is 6'2" 295 lbs and a beast on the field. Mack makes us so proud that he is a team leader and did excellent. He missed only one tackle last night. I think as the season goes on and he drops a few more lbs he'll be ready for JV football next year (here in VA 8th graders can play on the JV football team in HS).

So next year I will have a Varsity and JV linemen. That two ball games a week and practice every night with Shayne gone...holy cow. I know we can do it, but I feel bad for the boys that Shayne will be gone, but it'll be fun to keep him updated and overwhelmed with pictures LOL.

Keep check in gang, and I'll keep you updated on how fast these kids grow this year.

I am so MAD

First let me say I did not vote for Obama, and if that makes everyone mad, then don't read my blog today. Second, President of the United States is SUPPOSED to be an office of HONOR (yes, I know there is Clinton and Nixon...but NONE the less HONOR). The President represents the entire country, and his behavior last night on Jay Leno is not just a gaffe to be discussed on television. Its a direct slam to the progress the Special Olympics have made over the years....and to every disabled person out there.

I have a son who was recently dx with Asperger Syndrome (high functioning autism), and I am struggling everyday with the fact his NORMAL isn't societies NORMAL. Ya know for example my two older boys were on wrestling teams and football teams by 6 years old, and my baby boy isn't to that level to even consider something like that. It seems trivial in the overall scheme of things, but some days its hard to know that people will make fun of him or be mean. And last night the President of the United States just proved that my worst fears will come true. How dare a man who worked so hard to get where he has, and overcome that mountains he had too, and to get America to make history and vote in the first African American President, then to make some off the cuff remark about Special Olympics.

Now before you all flip out, know that I'm not naive and a joke is a joke, but as a mom I'm offended, as an American I am repulsed, and my fear is that if he can just say it so quick and w/o thinking then he better use the teleprompter more and what type of person is he REALLY if he just has that type of analogy about things.

I am ashamed of the fact that my son's school has to have Disability Awareness week to create acceptance, and our President just in one fail swoop set this back tons. He needs to stop campaigning, and being a talk show celebrity and get his ass back to Washington and fix SOMETHING.

Now what song is it?

Nope this isn't some mushy "our" song blog. Its about me wanting to kick his butt. See my dear husband is a die hard youtube addict LOL. The other day I was READING the news...yes, reading....we have a game he youtubes, and I turn on the closed captioning and read whatever I wanna watch...it's like time together doing what each of us wants LOL.

None the less, he was playing this song, called Penny on the Floor, and I wasn't paying attention...but apparently my subconscious was since today I was humming it...and I didn't have any darn idea WTH the song was.



I finally figured it out, and looked up the lyrics and now I know the song. I will leave a penny on the floor when he leaves till he comes back. Now what song is buzzing in your head today? Bet you find yourself humming Penny on the Floor before day is out.

Have a great day...spending more time with Shayne before he goes.

I am OFFICIALLY OLD

I was up in the middle of the night (damn insomnia LOL) and on comes a commercial for the "Silver Care Plan" and the commercial goes on to say "if you were born between 1924 and 1969 call now yadda, yadda, yadda."

So I sat for a minute and all the sudden light dawned on me that OMG I was part of that group now. I actually qualify for the "Silver Care Plan" holy cow, when did I get old enough for that?

It was a big dose of "move it or lose it sister" so I got up...since I was up anyway LOL and cleaned up the whole downstairs. Now I am sure I will be butt tired at KD's nap time but at least my house will be cleaned.

I do believe in the adage of "you are only as old as you feel." And I don't feel OLD per say, but holy cow in less than 8 months I will officially be 40 years old....whew remember when that seemed old to us LOL. Well I am NOT gonna behave like an OLD woman, I am getting in shape, and getting stuff done...just hang on for the ride gang.

Where does the time go?

I know as mothers we ask ourselves that all the time...but this week there was another moment where I actually had to stop and catch my breath. The high school coach wants my middle schooler to start lifting with the JV team because here in Virginia 8th graders play JV ball at the high school. He is a big boy and has played for lots of years (not the last 3 since they didn't have MS ball in NC or here in VA) but he's ready to get back into it.

Mack is a great kid, and I feel bad that this year the first year he'll be back on the football field with a sport in common with his dad, that Shayne will be deploying and missing the whole darn season. But some how I know it will be ok, and he will work his tail off. I remember the first time he walked on a football field, a nice boy who was older than him named John pushed him over (both linemen LOL) and when Mack got up he got in the car and said "mom that John boy is mean he knocked, me over and didn't say he was sorry." We all just laughed and explained it to him....so this week when I saw him walking into the weight room with his older brother my heart melted. They are truly amazing kids and I so proud to be their mother.

I will be posting pictures and updated here so we can share the ups and down while Shayne is gone, so hope you all don't mind some extra "mom moments" the next few months.

Update on life here...

Well as we adapt to a new state and its weather, and bugs, and well new obligations, I can tell you its been one heck of a ride on this roller coaster of life. Lots of good, and not so good, never bad.

The kids are doing AMAZINGLY at their new schools,and our youngest was dx with Asperger Syndrome, so we are viewing that as a change for the better...even though it has its days. KD will head to school next fall, and Shayne will deploy again this spring....if you'd like to follow that ride, please feel free to check out my Missing You blog to keep updated on that adventure.

Last year I tried to be POSITIVE all the time, and I fell very short some days, some weeks, even some months. But I can tell you that I did learn a lot about myself, and about my life. I know (as everyone does) that life is what you make of it....and you get only as much out of it as you put into it. That being said, I am ok...I am proud of me. That doesn't mean I don't want to make changes, but I'm good.

This year's journey on this blog will be devoted to "things" and "changes" about the kids, myself, and our life. Once again I will try to find the "smile" or something "positive" in all of it. I want to finish a book I started a few years ago, I am going to lose some of this weight...not all of it that would be unrealistic, but some of it. I am also going to be starting a blog list (to keep me accountable) of "101 things I want to do in 1001 days"...so check for that update, and as always, please feel free to ask anything, and touch base, as I can use all the chatting I can find on here.